GMS...don't give up. There is so much hope for you. You KNOW you are hearing voices. That is huge. That means you are self aware and can beat this. You just need the right help. You express frustration of not being free. I understand that. We are all trapped in our own situations. We all are on a spectrum between insanity and sanity. Do not end your beautiful life. You have yet to discover your purpose and true beauty. Keep working with your doctors. Believe in your right to live and be free. Don't rob yourself with those blades.