Hello, Newme2018
I am also the mother of two beautiful sons. As a practicing alcoholic, alcohol was my first love - above my husband, my sons, my career, my family. Anything that got in the way of my drinking had to go. I was having a love affair with alcohol. In sobriety, I've made amends to all of the people I harmed. I hurt them in every imaginable way possible; mentally, emotionally, and financially. They suffered worse than me because they didn't have a bottle to crawl into. I got sober through the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. I attended lots of meetings, read the Big Book, got a sponsor, worked the steps, and by the grace of God I no longer am obsessed with a bottle. I have found a design for living that really works.
Good luck to you.