Just a couple thoughts...you seem to be expending a lot of mental energy on other people and what you think they think of you. What other people think of me is none of my business. Your attorney and therapist are people you pay to provide a service...are you satisfied/happy with that service? That’s the concern with them... not if they like you.
Do you journal? Your posts read a bit like a spiral...treading over the same material. Maybe re-read your posts and see if you see anything differently with a little time and space? What do you want for yourself? If your life was a blank page how would you fill it in?
Are you familiar with Maslow’s hierarchy of needs? I gently suggest getting back to the basics...food, rest, security, then building from there with lots of self care. Each little thing you do for you can help to make you feel better, stronger, healthier & more self confident. It is time to be your top priority.