Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
That is worrisome...a relapse in the making. Should you be going to an event where there is likely to be drugs and alcohol?
Sounds like a plan for disaster to me- I'd find other plans, with someone sober ASAP.
You get to choose what you do - whether you drink or use- and you have a couple of days to play the tape through .of what will happen if you let this thinking keep going and end up getting high. Nothing good, probably? At least guilt and regret minimum.
I hope you stop this train now before it goes any further. Good job starting to share here.