Higher Power
The willingness that it shows you just being able to admit to yourself that you have a problem shows you that there is a greater force at work and with time I'm sure you will find your higher power. It's going to be individually unique. Like me I'm an addict so I picture my higher power as that guy who will come pick me up when I'm down and out with a carload of woman and hooks me up with a briefcase of cash who wouldn't want that guy as a higher power right, so to each their own and best of luck your on the right path just keep going...