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so the issue is that you want permanent abstinence but temporarily the big picture of wanting permanent abstinence doesn't carry you through the immediate wanting of what you want now?
Therein lies the rub fini.
Therein lies my perennial inability to stay stopped.
I drink, then I'm miserable for a few days.
I feel better.
Start racking up some time.
Figure it's okay to drink again.
well, i was talking about "want". now you are talking about screwy thinking.
that is a different issue, though it leads you to the same result.
you do not have an inability to stop permanently.
from here, it looks like you perennially decide not to do what works for others as you think you already know better, yet it is your very thinking that screws you over after racking up some time.
maybe you do not know who you are, with respect to this?
in any case, just FYI, i am on no drugs that relate to addiction, alcoholism, emotions, psych.
though i do use my Asthma inhaler and my blood pressure meds daily and will take an ibuprofen if i have a giant headache
this is doable, daredevil.
doable by you.