Originally Posted by
fini 
so the issue is that you want permanent abstinence but temporarily the big picture of wanting permanent abstinence doesn't carry you through the immediate wanting of what you want now?
Therein lies the rub fini.
Therein lies my perennial inability to stay stopped.
I drink, then I'm miserable for a few days.
I feel better.
Start racking up some time.
Figure it's okay to drink again.