I am so relieved this story ended how it did. I am so glad you got out alive and safe.
I know you are 21, but give nice, steady, kind and responsible men a second look next time. Decent is sexy.
Bad boys are not worth it. My super smart, charismatic, conservative sister in law married a bad boy, thinking she would convert him and change him. He put up a good front here and there, but she ended up leaving him (can't divorce due to her religion) because he developed a heroin addiction to go along with his alcoholism. They seem so appealing living on the edge like that until it all goes downhill.
Thanks for writing. It's ok to keep processing, that was traumatic. I'm sorry that happened.