In the big book of AA the natural state of the alcoholic without alcohol and not working on their recovery is described as 'restless, irritable, and discontent'. And it was being in that state for too long that made me firstly want to die, and eventually made me take peoples advice and work on my recovery by getting a sponsor and doing the 12-step recovery program. Thank God I did. Life looks a lot different to me today.
What are you currently doing for your recovery Sherlock? Perhaps there is something that you could add in. Gratitude Lists might be a good thing to start with as they're simple enough. Some folk do them on the threads on here.
BB