125 days is a great start, but it's still pretty early in sobriety. Many of us spent years (in my case nearly 30 years) destroying ourselves with alcohol. So why is it that we think a few months should "cure" us?!?
As others have said, recovery is about rebuilding our lives. Yes, you'll have to now deal with your emotions, rather than trying to escape them. You'll also have to find something else to do with your time. What kind of things were you interested in before you started drinking? I've rediscovered some hobbies that I long ago abandoned because they cut into my drinking time.
Whatever happens, please remain sober. Things WILL get better, but it's up to you to make it happen!