Originally Posted by
sherlockholmes2 
125 days for me, which is great but...
I'm angry all the time
I don't look forward to anything
I can't find any joy in anything
I'm so irritable and impatient with everyone including myself
Life just feels boring
It feels like the world is ganging up on me and everything that can go wrong is going wrong
I'm annoyed with myself for feeling this way, but I am beginning to wonder if all of this is worth it. I mean, what's the point of not drinking to be healthier and live longer if that life is just miserable?
When I got sober at the age of 35 my life was in shambles.
In sobriety I've had plenty of bad days, weeks, months and even a few bad years.
However no matter how I spin things I can never convince myself life was better the last years of my drinking than whatever is going on in sobriety.
I never wanted to stop drinking and wouldn't have if I thought I could continue. But I didn't.
I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. And all the on-going drama which surrounds alcoholic behavior.