I haven't had any AV talk at all the last week. I just got hit with a big craving. A feeling of old times almost?
I just got tagged in Facebook from a memory from 2011. When I was just drinking with my friends for fun, laughing at the **** we did, you know.. before it got bad.
I am in no way acting on it, but my god if it didnt cross my mind like "you're being to hard on yourself" "you're friends drink way more than you do" " look how much fun it was, carefree, you've gotten way to serious" blah blah blah blah says the AV.
It had me missing my old friends (i've dropped the friendship cuz it was negative and fueled my addictions) and I almost had a longing for "one more time".
The good thing is, I can now realize this as AV talking. Its crazy how fast that tripped me up when I was feeling pretty confident.
Good reminder I need to be extra vigilant.
I have my therapist today so will talk this through and also I think I need a treat tonight
