Good afternoon all.
3 days to go until Hannah's exams start in earnest. She seems pretty good. Not particularly nervous. I, however, am nervous for her but I imagine that is normal mum-type behaviour! We are having an evening and day of maths revision starting in a bit. It is quite frankly a good distraction from my own negativity which I am doing my best to keep under control. But it is hard. It doesn't help that this exact thing triggered my last relapse and it is the very idea of that that frightens me the most. Yes I have 9 months of sobriety in my back pocket. But wow the pull of the poison can literally catch your breath.
So I'm going to keep on keeping on and up my vigilance against my addiction.
So much has improved in my life and remembering that and being grateful for it isn't going to hurt.
So I need to engage my little grey cells and get stuck into some maths. Eek!
Lots of love to you all xxx
(((Ben))) I hope you are okay xxx