You’ve been in this exact spot before John. You know it’s the booze talking. People are out there, but you need to reach out too. You have a whole network of people who care about you here, and there is nothing stopping you from picking up the phone and calling your local group or hotline. If you wanted to talk to someone from that church, you could just go there too. The booze makes it seem like there’s no one out there because it wants you all to itself. Dump out what you have and make tomorrow a better day.