OK, just going to try to give a better explanation of the sequence of events:
1) Had surgeries/took pain meds/got addicted/husband doesn't know
2) Husband had surgery/has pain meds/takes them as prescribed/I take his when I don't have any (without him knowing).
3) Husband left a week ago to work out of country.
4) I ran out of Vicodin/called our Dr. to get more "for husband"
5) Stumbled upon this website/got me thinking/decided I have a problem and want to get help
6) Got mail/Dr. had sent prescription for husband and I freaked
7) Started thread about it here and ended up telling husband about it so I wouldn't be tempted to take it.
8) Saw huge lump on scar running down my stomach/went to Dr. this morning/found out more surgery coming b/c it is another hernia
It is like the "nanosecond" I decided to try and get help there is a giant "HERE IS VICODIN" staring me in the face