Totally get it Brain.
In my experience, I was questioning myself, thinking something must be wrong with ME because I didn't buy into the mainstream recovery philosophy. I mean, all these people seemed to 'get' it!! Hmm.....the weird thing was, that they didn't seem happy and they certainly didn't seem free!! Maybe I just got in with a glum bunch...who knows....but I kept thinking, is THIS really what it's all about? Ummm....no thank you!
And the reason you could quit alcohol, on your own, is that each of us has what it takes inside us to do just that. ( Not sure if I said that right, but y'all get the gist.)
And that brings me to something I want to talk about...a frustration really...but since I know this forum has loads of rules I'm not sure if we're allowed to talk about it. Is there a veteran here that I could ask before bringing it to this thread?