Thank you everyone.
It really is a no brainer. Why put myself through it anymore.
The blackouts seem to be coming on more quickly as well.
The other night I was at a restaurant with two "normie" friends.
We had a couple of drinks and I was absolutely determined not to embarrass myself.
Sitting chatting about one if their new romances.....next thing I woke up in my own bed the next morning !!!
What the hell ? No idea how the night panned out or how I got home.
I think I must have been having a functioning blackout as I have had no negative feedback fom home or the 2 friends. Even had a txt nexd day saying what a nice evening it was and we must do it again.
My bag was intact. Coat hung up etc etc.
Its absolute torturous madness....