Blackout hell
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My blackouts were miserable too. Total madness that I got myself into that situation again and again and again. I’m seven away from my last one and so thankful.
What do you think you need to do to stop and stay stopped cuckoo?
What do you think you need to do to stop and stay stopped cuckoo?
I am amazed at how long I accepted blackouts.
How much life I lost.
How much I don’t know about what I did.
I’m so glad to be free of that.
Recovery has been the best gift ever.
Being present always and never having to wake up from another blackout to that horrible feeling of shame and confusion.
You can be free too.
How much life I lost.
How much I don’t know about what I did.
I’m so glad to be free of that.
Recovery has been the best gift ever.
Being present always and never having to wake up from another blackout to that horrible feeling of shame and confusion.
You can be free too.
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Join Date: Aug 2017
Posts: 304
I have to accept.
I know I must accept that alcohol and me arent good friends.
This week has been horrible.
I am getting too old and too vulnerable for it to continue.
I am constantly worrying about my health, my looks, my figure, my bank balance....not to mention my loved ones.
Time for me to accept and start moving forward with my life now.
The bad has completely taken over every thing.
I know I must accept that alcohol and me arent good friends.
This week has been horrible.
I am getting too old and too vulnerable for it to continue.
I am constantly worrying about my health, my looks, my figure, my bank balance....not to mention my loved ones.
Time for me to accept and start moving forward with my life now.
The bad has completely taken over every thing.
There isn't much worse than choosing to put our selves into states where what we do and think is so out of our control that the next day, maybe even the same day, we cannot remember what happened. Chance and disease and bad luck - all out of our control and inevitable tragedies of life for us all.
Blackouts? Just a horror. A disgusting horror.
Stop drinking. It's the only answer.
Blackouts? Just a horror. A disgusting horror.
Stop drinking. It's the only answer.
Yes you do have a choice. And the blackouts are 100% preventable based on your choices - glad you are deciding to not drink today.
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Join Date: Aug 2017
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Thank you everyone.
It really is a no brainer. Why put myself through it anymore.
The blackouts seem to be coming on more quickly as well.
The other night I was at a restaurant with two "normie" friends.
We had a couple of drinks and I was absolutely determined not to embarrass myself.
Sitting chatting about one if their new romances.....next thing I woke up in my own bed the next morning !!!
What the hell ? No idea how the night panned out or how I got home.
I think I must have been having a functioning blackout as I have had no negative feedback fom home or the 2 friends. Even had a txt nexd day saying what a nice evening it was and we must do it again.
My bag was intact. Coat hung up etc etc.
Its absolute torturous madness....
It really is a no brainer. Why put myself through it anymore.
The blackouts seem to be coming on more quickly as well.
The other night I was at a restaurant with two "normie" friends.
We had a couple of drinks and I was absolutely determined not to embarrass myself.
Sitting chatting about one if their new romances.....next thing I woke up in my own bed the next morning !!!
What the hell ? No idea how the night panned out or how I got home.
I think I must have been having a functioning blackout as I have had no negative feedback fom home or the 2 friends. Even had a txt nexd day saying what a nice evening it was and we must do it again.
My bag was intact. Coat hung up etc etc.
Its absolute torturous madness....
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