Sorry about this post feeling a bit better now for some reason at night my mood is a lot lower get tired of having these flashbacks angry at my abusers
no matter what i do to myself isnt going to change the past ...i should be looking forward not back I know its not anyone fault but the abusers God didnt make them do that they choice to do evil things to me i didnt make them do that ...Jesus is my higher power i am safe now i have my husband all of you guys my friends supporting me so much i should be grateful av also have my sponsor who i need to call today we are meeting up tomorrow but i forgot to ask what time i have two groups today one with my pastor the other one just a mental health drop in this is the drop in were i had the music therapy i dont really want to talk about it with them ...i want them to drop it
there is no way i can move on until they do that