George,
Been there.
Not sure what brought you to SR, but I was losing my mind after 80 days clean. I have recovered to a better state, but I can tell there are even better things coming.
Regretfully, I have had some booze in my time clean but I am over it now.
I will not be tempted in anyway ever again.
Ime....opening the door to booze leads to a hell on earth again eventually.
Thanks.