Thanks Dave. I started drinking heavily mainly to deal with stress and insomnia, to pass out/sleep. But after getting used to blacking out, I admit I enjoyed the feeling of being detached from reality in that sense. But obviously became a problem once I tried to drink and drive /couldn't remember anything or control my actions etc. That's not to say if I started again, I would let it get to that point. But going through withdrawals was pretty scary and a pretty big deterrent for me.