Thanks everyone...
The worse part is that my husband and mother are encouraging me to drink. Went to a nice place a couple of nights ago and my husband First encourage me to order a drink and when I didn’t he offered me a sip of his wind and he actually told me to take a big gulp.
I didn’t And I just let it go. I was fine that night and I posted about it, but as usual my AV gets worse when I make it through a situation when people are drinking. It tries to get me later.
Part of my plan is posting here, so I am and playing the tape. Drinking never made anything better and it is so crazy to see how my AV is manipulating the situation and minimizing my past drinking.
I feel really down and this isn’t like me...