My XABF committed suicide. He was a very smart man and a gifted photographer. He had friends, family, people who loved him. He had a lot to give to the world but unfortunately, he struggled, couldn't stay sober and gave up.
I hope that you reached out for help yesterday. Let us know how you are doing.
If you spend some time on this site, you will see that not only there is hope but there are thousands of people on SR who managed to quit and stay quit. For some, it took quite a few attempt but they never gave up.
Stay with us.