misterfalcon

I feel that the only way I can quit drinking is to kill myself. I have been to treatment a few times and I always come back to drinking. I hate drinking and what it does to me, but I feel like I have no other options at this point.

Schne

Go to ER straight away. You owe yourself to ask for and get help

soberlicious

I felt that way too, misterfalcon. I needed a crisis placement because of my attempt to suicide. That 10 days kept me safe, until I could get a foothold and figure out what I was going to do to quit for good.

I urge you to let someone know if you feel you are going to harm yourself.

Please know that there are options and that you can do this, even if you may not believe that right now. Many have done it, and you can too.

wildflower70

mister,

Please don't give alcohol the power to take your life....you are worth so much more! Call a hotline, reach out to a friend or family member, stay on this site until help arrives.

We are here listening....you can do this.

Obladi

misterfalcon,

I've felt that way too. Do you have someone to talk with about this?

O

fini

it's not true, mister.
you feel like that is the only way, but in fact there are others.
glad to see you here, reaching out.
many have been exactly where you are and have found a workable option that includes living.

Sohard

No. It's not the only way. You want to quit, and I believe you will quit. Now you must believe it. We're here for you every step of the way. The sooner you put down the drink, the sooner your hell will end. But you've got to stop now. Now. No longer pouring a depressant down your throat will - with time - drastically and positively affect your outlook. Don't believe what your mind is telling you right now. It's all messed up. Believe us on SR. You CAN do this and you will one day help others through this. Make this a purpose.

a40tofreedom

Please don't think that way. My brother thought the same and took his life this week. I beg you to talk to someone. You can beat this.

Dee74

Hi misterfalcon

I've felt that despair too but it's predicated on a lie. Change really is possible, and there is life - a great life - after drinking.

I had to change everything but I'm glad I did.

I use to be an all day everyday drinker for many years.. now I have over a decade of recovery.

Don;t lose heart and never give up. Think about what you've beenm doing to stay sober as opposed to staying drinking, There's probably an inbalance of effort there - there was for me.

If you feel really low, please go to the ER or ring one of the crisis numbers in this link:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html

There's tons of support here - let us help?

D

Coldfusion

Look at all of us who care for you here, Misterfalcon.

We care because we understand your situation, and know how tough it is to feel the need to drink to live. I needed help to get through those first few days--if you are still feeling desperate, please call a crisis line.

Siyo

Please don’t harm yourself. This too shall pass. You can get through this. It will be difficult, but I’ve learned something about this life, anything worth while doesn’t come easily. Life is worth it. Never give up.

Dee74

I hope you'll come back and let us know how you're gettign on misterfalcon

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Dropsie

We are thinking of you -- let us know how you are.

FBL

misterfalcon, when I was actively drinking, I wanted to die many times. In fact, I now believe that my drinking was a slow form of suicide. Please don't give up hope. All it takes is one moment to turn your life around. I had to finally admit that alcohol had totally kicked my ass. When I did that, I had a "moment of clarity" and I finally made the decision to stop. That was nearly 9 years ago. If I can do it, so can you. Please check in a let us know how you're doing! We're all here for you. You CAN do this!!!

zjw

maybe direct some of that anger and frustration and such at the booze itself rather then yourself?

I'd be inclined to even think getting a full bottle of vodka and smashing it and yelling obsenties at it that yoru sick of its **** might even be theraputic on some level.

Its not you its the booze is what i'm saying.

ScottFromWI

Hope you were able to seek some help or call a hotline. Alcohol will make things seem very hopeless...hope you are doing better today.

Carlotta

My XABF committed suicide. He was a very smart man and a gifted photographer. He had friends, family, people who loved him. He had a lot to give to the world but unfortunately, he struggled, couldn't stay sober and gave up.
I hope that you reached out for help yesterday. Let us know how you are doing.
If you spend some time on this site, you will see that not only there is hope but there are thousands of people on SR who managed to quit and stay quit. For some, it took quite a few attempt but they never gave up.
Stay with us.

NYCDoglvr

I couldn't stay sober on my own. That kind of thinking drove me straight to AA and I've been sober now since 1991. "You have to be willing to go to any lengths....." the program says and I was terrified of dying so I took all the "silly" suggestions.