It all feels very strange and something is just not making sense. Something isn’t clicking.
The way she’s acted throughout this entire process makes me question who truly broke up with who. It feels as if I overtly hurt her and as a result am being met with resentment and deep anger.
Alcoholism is a baffling and cunning disease, alcoholic behaviors often don’t make any sense to those witnessing it nor to the alcoholic themselves.
Glad you received your things back and if moving out of that neighborhood is what you need to do for you than do it.
You said you were with her for a 1 year, it’s possible she “managed” to keep her behaviors in check but as of late is unable to. You are witnessing the “whole” her, probably didn’t see this side of her prior or maybe just little pangs of it.
What you should work on is self-blame and NOT getting caught up in her spin on things or what she’s told other people about you. This is what keeps us broken down, keeps us emotionally charged and attached to damaging people in her lives. You know the truth of what has happened and that is all that matters.