d.o.c. is a bit of a misnomer as i do not actually remember choosing this life cycle... there's a coupla thoughts that kinda relate. Tom Petty admitted that his addiction to heroin started when he turned 50 and was going through a terrible divorce, similarly i'd never tried crack cocaine until shortly before my 50th and unlike any other substance once i started, stopping is damn near impossible. Secondly when in a rehab facility almost 3 years ago a more hard nosed councilor who was not only the same age as myself but also recovered from the same substance and relatively late starter too said 'anyone who'd introduce this stuff to us was expressing the purest form of hatred, it's meant to do one thing... destroy lives'
...and she was right