Hi, NAbaby.
Welcome.
Coke IS fun.
Til it isn’t.
I think your head is steering you right, but your heart is going in another direction.
Coke is not only addictive, it’s expensive, especially when combined with alcohol.
Many a story on this board about disastrous, expensive coke/alcohol driven evenings.
Not going to tell you what to do, because only you can decide, but I would be very, very cautious about moving in together and combining funds.
At least, keep your financials separate from his.
Peace.