Thank you! Yep 2nd time black out drunk. Woke up and realized I didn’t even know i had a problem until my husband gave me the boot. 18 years of marriage. I don’t drink everyday, hardly at all. Apparently when I do, it’s a drunken nightmare. I want to change and be better ..... I want my family. I truly need hope. Maybe I don’t love myself. I’m looking for a meeting near me, this post was my 1st step. I realize now I have a problem. I’m just so confused how it got so bad so fast ...... and I wonder if he would ever take me back.