I second Good - AA is not a perfect fit for me, but the meetings are great. Even when they suck. It's just a bunch of people with similar sufferings who sit together for an hour then go and bear the brunt of the world on their own.
Nothing lost by going, only some insight and strength gained.
Way - you need a plan. Do you have one this time?
Part of my plan his time around is putting in the forefront of my mind the "whys" - all the things that I want to get away from that happen when I drink, all the things I want to move toward that disappear when I drink.
Welcome back. Good for you to post.
No one is coming to save us.