AA skeptic here. Meetings are often the highlight of my day now. I only attend a couple and I love them, even if I'm still a little nervous. When I first started, it took a while to find the ones I liked, the ones with enough women (men predominate many which is good if you're a male!), with enough young people, etc. I stopped going last year after I ran into some young women from the sober living facility at the gas station after the meeting. As I walked out carrying my six pack and saw them, I felt so ashamed.
Since then, I've come a long way. I no longer find relief in alcohol, just pain. I've got a sponsor and am working the steps. I read the big book and do a morning mediation from pages 86-87.
I highly recommend trying meetings. I sat there in silence, white knuckles, anxiety out of control, and found many sympathizing folk. They'd lean over after the meeting and whisper, "you made it!".
I hope you can find the right meetings for you, wayforward. You can do this and make it stick!