wayforward

I hope everyone is well.

I don't want this to become like the movie Groundhog's Day, where I just keep repeating the same cycle. I know I have to just get back on the horse.

I'm sitting here, moderately withdrawing. Another few days gone by like a blur. I just don't understand. It feels like two different lives, the way I am while sober versus while drunk. The person I am while sober just disappears. I become detestable.

I don't think I can do this alone, but I also know that once I get a little traction while sober I immediately feel that I can handle things without a meeting. Probably because, if I'm being honest, I'm afraid of what a meeting will be like. But I'm tired of this. I am ruining my life.