Originally Posted by
Horn95 
I had a good stint of abstinence, and then, well, you all know the story. I can have just a couple. I ended up getting smashed.
Been drinking hard for the past 8 days. My wife has been supportive, but I can tell she is losing respect for me. Heck, I’m losing respect for myself. She deserves better. I deserve better. This is not who I was.
I am now a certifiable alcoholic. I don’t know where bottom is, but it’s getting close.
Please send support wishes. I really, really need it. I would be suicidal if not for all the people who depend on me.
I think the takeaway is after a period of abstinence, you thought you could have a couple. You now the answer to that question, so it's time to start again. This time you are wiser! Don't dig the hole too deep.