I hope you stay strong! It's so hard in the beginning, Health is everything, the best possible place to be is bright eyed, feeling strong, energy to get you through the day. It can be yours - just take it one day sober each day. Don't let your alcoholic voice tempt you to throw it away. Reach deep within your soul, get some resources going to help support you. Come back to SR often, multiple times a day if you feel the urge to drink. Wishing you strength! Get some rest, drink plenty of water. Praying for you Ides!