So Its Not Easy
A horse only finishes a race by completing the hurdles. You started the race - dont beat yourself up. Youre on here - a positive move. Theres loads of help around so when youre ready to ask I know you will. It took me nigh on 40 years - I dont suggest you wait that long of course.
Try and plan a positive move for tomorrow and get through tonight best you can.
Regards
Dave 🤠