Welcome BertyBoy.
I second mako's advice.
This place can save you if you let it.
Dont expect to move mountains in a day. Take it ODAAT and get all the help you can. Withdrawl is tough if your going through it just stick to it and loads and loads of water and B complex vitamins are reccommended (common advice)
After a week you feel better. After a month much better.
Have you got a PLAN :
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...very-plan.html (What exactly is a recovery plan?)