Incomprehensible Demoralization
I think when I first saw these words in the big book I realized that these words were describing me when I was drinking. A little over five years ago this spring I was in the middle of the insane cycle of coming home from work, stopping at the liquor store, finishing off a six pack of beer, waking up the next morning swearing off alcohol and doing it all over again. One Monday I had a nervous break down in front of all of my coworkers. Talk about incomprehensible demoralization. I was sent to detox and started my journey in aa in April 2013. I always remember those two words if I ever decide that I can drink again.