Originally Posted by
Anarock 
There is literally 0 chance of me asking someone. Anxiety, social anxiety, depression, no self confidence. I never get to talking to anyone at AA.
I probably don’t deserve a sponsor anyways.
I never met anyone who didn't feel social anxiety and depression at the start of their journey. If they hadn't they wouldn't have felt desperate enough to even contemplate it anyway.
And whether or not we deserve a sponsor really is completely besides the point, which I suppose is why many folk equate recovery with grace and undeserved love. You know there are people sat in prisons, working the 12-step program after committing some horrendous crimes. I don't suppose many of them felt deserving of a sponsor either.
But this isn't about there not being a sponsor available really is it. It's about being willing. Sometimes it's so, so hard to get willing. I struggled with that for many months.
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