Originally Posted by
warrens 
You are actually seeing things quite clearly. There's a good chance that your alcoholic brain will, in the coming days and months, try to convince you otherwise.
The good news is that all of these effects can be reversed. Doesn't mean that they will disappear, but they can be reversed. Six years ago I too, was a mess in all the ways you describe. Today, at age 70, I am mountain biking, hiking, swimming, etc. My depression has lifted in favor of joy upon awakening every morning.
May you be successful in your quest...
Joy,
warren
Yeah I keep trying to remind myself that what I'm feeling is a chemical reaction and it will pass, it can just be hard in the moment. That's why my plan is to take things day by day as much as I can. Hiking sounds a lot of fun, I may look into it as I actually live in a rather rural area and I always found walking to be therapeutic.