I'm absolutely terrified
I feel so anxious that I don't want to talk to anyone but I'll try. I've been drinking everyday for almost 10 years. The consumption has slowly gone up as time has gone by. Over the last year it has gone up significantly and I have started drinking some mornings.
I've just come off a week long bender drinking round the clock, it ended at 6am on Wednesday. I feel like my bodies damaged, I'm drinking lots of water and it just goes straight through me. I also have a constant dry mouth which will not go, I have back pain, bruising on my hip.
I'm terrified that I've finally done some serious harm but I don't want to go to the doctors because I would have to come clean with my family. I can't deal with that shame on top of everything else right now
