You don't 'know' they're going to commit you - you're scared they might but thats pretty unlikely Nichole, especially you don't agree. They need court orders and all then..
We're all ordinary people here. None of us are crisis workers.
All we can do here is try and point you in the direction of competent help.
What about calling one of those crisis lines you got the number of last time?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...resources.html
Some good reading in this link too:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html
I know you're scared about calling numbers too - but is being scared you'll do harm to yourself any better?
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