Resentments killing me
Right I have serious resentment that I can’t seem to shift. I’m praying done step 4 n 5 on it numerous times but it still like a monster in my head. I’m resentful about how I was treated by the father of my child but also have a deep resentment towards myself because I let myself be treated sooo badly. I have handed it over so many times but it’s now getting worse. This I used to drink on in the past. I just feel so much regret shame and loss of me after what went on v toxic abusive stuff. I have to get on with him now as we share care of our son. He still drinks but whilst he’s out there running off into the sunset after everything and I’m sat here full of resentment and I’m supposed to be the one in recovery🙏🏼 I even get on my sponsors nerves about it I’m sure it’s been going on years my obsessing about his / my behaviour and how bad things were. Just let go that’s all I want to do but it’s taking sooo long god