Open up to your own compassion my friend!!
It sounds beautiful
Really it does!
Awkward it will feel awkward
You hit the nail on the head right there!
I am fighting for my life big time
It's hopefully coming across in my words
I am authentic and I know I'm ****** dying and I'm trying to stop it!!
Inside of me there is a keen runner
A good dad
A loving son and brother.
This addiction is one battle I've lost
Defeated I can't tackle it and it fkn infuriates me....
Anyone relate?
Humility is a course I need to study and embrace
Pride
Arrogance
Bloody horrendous
Stuck with me
Until I somehow give myself one day at a time over to the program of recovery.
I obviously have no idea who reads my posts apart from the people who respond to me.
But I'm imagining some
Long time sober people observing
Well I'm Hoping there is.
Because if I find freedom
And I continue here
I hope in a year or two God willing one of you stops by and drops me an inspirational line.
And maybe one day I can help some sick person like me
I would really like that!