4thegirls

I knew trouble was coming. I always falter around day 8. I was staying up til 1am, doing nothing about agitated thoughts. I was eating too much sugar. Drinking too much caffeine. I had missed four days of meetings and was isolating. I had bavk to back to back meetings yesterday and I just wanted to go sit down somewhere and have a nice meal. I made the decision to drink wine. I drank 3 glasses of it. That was at 3 o'clock yesterday afternoon. It is now 12:15pm and I still feel like my sinuses are in a vice, also nauseous. I was supposed to go to Mass this morning. Missed it. Was supposed to go with my daughter to a lecture. Had to skip it. I went to a meeting after I drank. It was awful. I think the other four people there were using as well. Not the way I want my recovery to be. I'm goi h to get through today and do what I'm supposed to do again. Meetings at 730 am. Meditation. Talk to my sponsor. Eat healthy foods. Sleep. Ugh. A good reminder of the glamor of alcohol.