my friend BB-always great advise from her.
glad ya found us here jojo.
nothing he has done defines who you are.
everything you did wasnt a waste- if it all didnt happen ya wouldnt have hit your bottom and became willing to put you first,eh? everthing that occured was necessary for you to get to the point of
Enough about him I hit bottom what can I do?
theres a load of support here and a great friends and family forum,too- lots of people that have been in your shoes to help you along.
you didnt cause it
you cant control it
you cant cure it
but you can fix you. i suggest putting some reminder notes around to start- reminders of who is #1 in your life right now.
also, take a look in the mirror-right into your own eyes.
then tell yourself," i love myself today." do it everytime youre near a mirror.
AND visit the F&F forum here.
did you mention if ya blocked his number? no contact is a good thing. he can put on some big boy undies and start adulting or find another hostage. not your circus not your monkey any more.