Hey Girl - welcome and congratulations on your sobriety journey thus far. I am a longtime hard core atheist, yet I love my AA meetings - my G roup O f D runks - my G O D! Yes it took me a while to come to terms with this, and my eyes still glaze over when the occasional share begins by speaking of their belief in a god of human form, and how HE saved them from themselves...but once you have resolved the truth within yourself, those mere words have little substance. It's really about letting go, and when I ket go to the universe, I relied on that group of drunks to be my GOD and help me navigate, which they continue to do, and I am forever grateful. Take what works for you and leave the rest. It's more difficult to find a deeper, more logical meaning to the steps and the program, but it makes more sense when you take the time to work it. Goid luck!