I cannot comprehend the vastness of my "God," because it's the whole of everything. After some time of thinking and meditating about this, I realized that God is a personification of something too grand (and too binary, in a way) that helps regular humans get it.
Eventually I became so broken and humble that I decided the fellowship would suffice. This group of drunks who all know me better than anyone else ever could - the kinship in the rooms is a power greater than myself or any one of us. That works.