Ghoster18

I've just relapsed
God whatever that is or isn't had no part in my downfall I ******* it up.

Lack of power is my dilemma
I am my lack of power

I had 32 days of sober living before I lapsed
I worked a program over those days
I prayed amongst other daily actions and I was somehow accessing this mysterious power.
Recovery in my fragmented experience is a daily action plan
Often in complete conflict with my self centred way of doing things
Irony is when I take those actions
God do I feel alive!!
Pun totally unintended but there it is!

I hope you find freedom.
G