Hi London, I've been in your shoes. It hurts when they drink. It hurts when they lie. It hurts when they are emotionally abusive.
You know what's good here? You finally got mad. I think that's a good sign. When I finally got mad I realized it was because I was finally taking care of me and needed to start setting some really healthy boundaries. Hang onto your anger. Listen to it. What is it trying to tell you about what you need to do next?