wow London, now it's making more sense. I can understand your feelings of crazy and back and forth emotions. Get off the crazy merry-go-round as only you can decide when you've had enough. He sounds very emotionally immature and not really ready for a stable exclusive relationship. I'm glad you are reading or listening to Melody Beattie, she really addresses how unhealthy relationships plays out. Addiction is only a part of the pie. Keep strong, keep connected, keep up the self care. Prayers and hugs sent your way.