Ahh . . . .that does make more sense. I was a bit confused but figured you were referring to a previous post somewhere.
So . . . at least for you . . . .the truth of the saying "more will be revealed" is proven. Have you heard this saying?
Whatever you do London, please take care of yourself. What you are going through is no joke. There should be some sort of rehab/intensive-care for going through this type of thing and there isn't.
Get a good nights sleep, get some exercise, stay hydrated, hang with good friends and let us know how you get on.